There can be a transitory conflict between spiritual evolution and the pull towards that which is conventional, acceptable, and normal human behaviour. The world, as ignorant as it is, accepts very little deviation from its often ridiculous and unfounded ideas of normalcy. As the underlying motives of typical human behaviour become clearer to us, we can be shocked and disconcerted by the selfish, inconsiderate, disingenuous, and frequently harmful intentions of routine, daily interaction. All of this is not apparent to the average man or woman who is engrossed in accustomed life without much awareness. After discovering this, we can become rather dismissive of all human interaction and find it stupid, pointless, and destructive. Our tolerance even for fundamental, polite niceties which are considered crucial in customary, day-to-day convention can become rather thin. Then, for a period, we may withdraw from mainstream behaviour in order to go within and metamorphose into something else more real and good. We all know of the introverted artist, the solitary mystic, and the unsociable philosopher who have withdrawn from traditional, societal communication.
We may wonder if we are on the right track because, for a while, we may seem less loving than we were before. It helps to remind ourselves of the shallowness of most normal love and that we are seeking to demonstrate something better. At least, in solitude and withdrawal one is offering a more sincere, albeit, silent and unconventional love of a nonpersonal, intelligent nature. There is no need to doubt the worth of our developing capacity to radiate a quiet, unpretentious energy field. Our goal of true, spiritual love is concerned with neither niceness nor prevailing behaviour patterns. It is a radical transition. This transformation occurs step by step. Mostly, it is the unexplainable and deeply welcomed grace of God. It has its own timing and evolution. We keep offering up everything not in accord with the desired goodness we seek. And we are kind to ourself, allowing as much solitude as needed, knowing that our worth to the world is growing daily in a precious and uncommon manner.
The withdrawal creates an environment for the, mostly, involuntary diminishing of the ego. The person loses interest in the normal worldly goings-on. One will have little or no interest in the media and will probably actively avoid it because of its negative impact on one’s consciousness. In some cases, one can go for years without knowing even the most basic information about world affairs. One keeps going forward until, quite surprisingly, one realizes that the valley has been passed and a lightness and freedom comes back into one’s being. One has to wait until the Greater Forces have dissolved the ego enough for the precious Light to take up residence within one’s being to the extent that is required for that individual at that time in their evolution.
We continue to go forward with our spiritual practices and these practices increasingly envelop us in loveliness. Eventually, we come out the other end of our withdrawal with a renewed interest in other people and a rekindled desire for participation in life. To most people, we seem more or less the same, except that we are more direct and honest and we may seem a little disinterested in normal things. However, inside we are totally different. Driven by God’s unconditional love, we have a great deal more strength, courage, wisdom, and equanimity. We come out the other side as a transparent being, nameless but with the mark of God. One could wish for nothing more.
This article is from Love’s Longing