Until a few years ago, I was not a newspaper reader or a news watcher. I always had a great aversion to horror movies and could never watch any movie at the cinema that had violence which, definitely, limited the choice of movie. To me, news watching was a similar thing. It’s not that I didn’t care about the world. I cared very much. I prayed for the people of the world to add a little weight to all the other healing lights that were being sent in that direction.
My focus was naturally on the interior world rather than the exterior one; the world of thoughts, emotions, and spirit. I found it relatively easy to read the thoughts and intentions of other people. Most people are struggling enough in life that they put little or no effort into the additional task of trying to cover up their thoughts. The thought patterns of humans are very similar, for good and bad, and so once we understand one person (ourself) it is not difficult to understand other people. The energy people put into those different thought patterns does, of course, vary greatly thus the diversity of people.
As a dancer, which one would assume is a highly exterior activity as it is all about the body, I still have a tendency to focus on the interior world. One of my dance teachers would sometimes ask me how I thought something looked. I would generally reply, “I can’t tell.” I couldn’t seem to be able to tell what something looked like, as an objective observer, despite the many mirrors in a dance studio.
Spiritual students have a tendency, over time, to have less of a sense of their separate identity, in particular, as a physical entity. From a spiritual perspective, this is something we value. It means the egoic sense is lessening its hold on us. It means we are a little less driven by the normal egoic tendencies than we were at the beginning of our spiritual dedication. It means we can be trusted a little more to not turn everything into, it’s all about me. It means we can forgive more quickly because there is less of an identity to hold onto resentments. It hopefully means we are a little more receptive to instructions from above which is what our initial goal was so many years ago. It means we will have a preference for being inclusive and open-hearted to others.
These days I watch the news and read the papers. Amongst the suffering there are also wonderful things. People are all the same: they want to be happy, they enjoy love stories and find them inspiring, men will defend women and children with their lives, women will do whatever it takes to nurture and protect their families, people want a better life, they want to learn and be educated, there are brave people everywhere who will try and make a better life for themselves, their children, and their countries. I am inspired by the great, common driving force – the desire for love, in every form. Love gives life meaning in a way nothing else can. If we focus on the interior world which makes us all the same then the exterior world will not seem in such conflict. It will be enlivening not dividing, enriching not impoverishing, uniting not damaging. We won’t need mirrors to tell us what we are or are not. We will know by virtue of what is inside us.