Appendix 2 in Waldmeer (Book 1 of Waldmeer)
The overriding theme of Waldmeer is what is love? It is considered from both a spiritual and human perspective. Sex is an ongoing, underlying interest/tension for many of the characters as it is in real life. We will look at this topic via Maria’s relationships with the main characters. There are several different types of sexual orientations in Waldmeer: Farkas is a heterosexual man, Gabriel is a bisexual man, Charlie is a gay female, and Maria is a heterosexual female. However, her spirit counterpart, Amira, tends to see things in a different manner.
We sense that Farkas has a definite sexual interest in Maria. We also feel that his greater interest, out of necessity from his suffering, is in the spiritual light of Amira. He is only partially aware of this. This disparity is further exacerbated at the end of Waldmeer by the speculative matter of Farkas and Amira’s past relationships. It brings up many questions. Is the essence of spiritual love the same for brothers and sisters as it is for lovers? How closely are we all related? What does it mean to love someone? What is left of that love when we no longer have a body? What does the body actually contribute to our love? What do we really want from sex? How important is it?
We also sense Gabriel’s sexual interest in Maria but it is veiled by his gay lifestyle. One wonders if the pull between heterosexuality and homosexuality has more to do with the emotional management of his personal relationships than anything else; a way of maintaining his freedom and independence; a way of entering relationships he wishes to pursue and exiting ones he is no longer interested in. Although Gabriel is part of the gay world, he relates to Maria in a conventional male/female manner. He tends to bring out the calm side of Maria, whereas Farkas often ignites Amira in Maria. Amira protects both Maria and Farkas.
Charlie accepts whatever love Maria is willing to give her but we cannot help feeling an underlying love interest from Charlie if it were given any room to grow. Charlie’s love for Maria brings up a spiritual question for Maria – If our identity does not come from our body then what does it matter which type of other body we may become sexually involved with?
Verloren has a strong and focused sexual interest in Farkas. It has somewhat of a predatory consistency. “Love” becomes predatory when it is pursued with disregard for the other person’s wishes. Verloren’s character is softened by our realisation that she is driven by a desire to be loved. In this sense, we can sympathise with her as it is a common experience to seek affirmation from people who do not wish to give it to us.
As a personality, Maria has a naturally gentle and feminine demeanour. However, in her combination with Amira, she represents the spiritual journey of us all; male and female, all personality types. Amira tends to be asexual in that she is beyond-gender and beyond-sexual. However, she gives way to the human dimension through the leanings of Maria in most of her Earth activities. Likewise, Maria gives way to Amira when a powerful spiritual presence is required. We get the sense that Amira, being a spirit, sees sex only as beneficial if it brings the soul closer to God or love. At times, we wonder if Maria/Amira is even capable of a sexual relationship but, at other times, we feel that under the right circumstances, it would be so. Although we know that Maria/Amira would not pursue sex for its own sake, we also never get the impression that she is against it.
Perhaps, it would be correct to say that Waldmeer raises more questions than it gives clear answers. Most of our battle is asking the right question. Waldmeer’s primary purpose is to educate about human nature and inspire the evolution of the soul. Growth always requires the questioning of one’s current position.
No relationship is by accident, especially, our most bonded relationships. Chance plays no role in the unfolding of our lives. Every relationship will automatically push towards its own evolution. Each carries its own lessons and purpose. None of our relationships will fail to fulfil their healing function. It may seem that they can fail and, sometimes, fail abysmally. However, healing is inevitable and simply a matter of time. From the perspective of the Divine, time is insubstantial and so healing is already present even if not already obvious.