Good fiction is not only based on believable and interesting characters but, at its centre, is the quote. The whole point of storytelling is to set the scene for something important to occur. This is generally encapsulated in the words of the characters at strategic points along the way. When we recall loved novels, we recall moments of meaning, change, and insight. Often, we can remember the exact words that were said. I sometimes think, with a little amusement, that writing fiction is like a long, drawn-out way of writing nonfiction. It takes a lot of words, conversations, and stage-setting to get to the point we want to make.
Part 1: Waldmeer – A Human and Spiritual Story of Love
There is a great deal of fantasy in real life and real in fantasy.
Fragility is the mask of mastery.
Commentator re Amira’s rebirth as a flower spirit in Farkas’s garden in Waldmeer.
We strengthen in ourselves what we give to others.
The Head Gardener of Garourinn, in the North Country, to Verloren.
You blame others to save attacking yourself. Neither is necessary. You are not as you think and nor is anyone else.”
Milyaket, guide of the Vastandamine Forest, in the interdimensional world of the Homeland, to Farkas.
Anything that is held in secret cannot be healed. The light cannot reach that which is locked away in the dark.
Milyaket to Farkas.
You see the separation of life as very arbitrary. You are not alone in this assumption. You have far more connection than you are even vaguely aware of. You will not lose the love that is yours.”
Milyaket to Farkas.
Maria of Waldmeer
Artists see the invisible before anyone else.
Commentator re Gabriel and Charlie.
There is another way of looking at this.
Charlie to Maria re Erdo’s teachings about relationships.
Relationships are used by the darkness to keep people revolving around the ego’s demands. For a moment, people see the light of the divine in each other. They run to it and then quickly forget the light they once saw as their fears reclaim their consciousness. Thus, begins the ongoing battle to protect one’s own ‘rights’, in case they be forgotten or betrayed. The tally of what is owed is counted, the guilt of perceived wrongdoings is cast upon the other, one’s freedom must be paid as the price for ‘love’, and it is only in short periods of peace when all of this is forgotten. Those moments are the precious windows of the Soul.
Erdo, forest mystic of the Leleks, to nineteen-year-old Maria.
We do not get to Heaven alone.
Erdo to Maria.
Those in pain give pain.
Maria’s thoughts re Farkas when he exits her life abruptly.
Your body would not get sick if you held no thought of resentment. It is neither good nor bad of itself. If we hold anything against anyone, we will suffer ourselves.
Erdo to Maria.“
If one is left behind, none of us gets there. No one can be forgotten. We are connected as one creation which has many interrelated parts. We are family. Whoever you hold accountable for their mistaken identity holds you in the dream.
Erdo to Maria.
We draw into our lives those who will help us to grow. Naturally, we tend to have mixed feelings about those very people but they are marked for us. We have forgotten that we wrote them an invitation some time ago. We look at them as if they are intruders when all along, they are our guests.
Erdo to Maria.
People use sex as a way of trying to complete themselves because they are so fragmented. They are drawn to people who have something that they need. By uniting with them, they think that they will be able to gain the coveted thing.
Charlie to Maria re Erdo’s teachings.
Even though our most prized personal bondings are generally selfish and egotistical, they are also our saviour. Through them, we learn to see the essence of ourselves, each other, and life. Our relationships are transformed and so are we. Offer your relationships to God and you will not be disappointed with what is made of them.
Charlie to Maria about Erdo’s teachings.
The Call to Love
It is the light of love which connects us to others. That is what we miss. We miss the love. We answer the call of love. It comes from God and touches our soul.
Maria’s thoughts about missing her friends.
It is one thing to lose people you love. It is another to lose yourself. That is a greater loss.
Maria’s reflections on the long beach of Waldmeer.
It is a great honour to be human. Humans have the capacity to freely choose their destiny and, one day, they will all choose the right destiny.
Galahad, the wolf pack leader, to Maria.
We all see a different reality and we make decisions based on what we see. Everyone is trying to protect their interests in the best way that they can. The world is commonly viewed as a place where someone must lose in order for someone else to win. It’s a competition with winners and losers. You must know, in your own heart, that there is an overriding Love which loves everyone.
Amira, the spirit guide, to Maria.
Life is not a competition. No one has to lose for someone else to win. A true blessing blesses everyone. A fragmented love which makes others lose will eventually turn upon itself and destroy the very thing which was being so carefully guarded. An open-hearted love will follow a course which can only lead somewhere good.
Amira to Maria re Gabriel’s attitude about Maria’s other relationships.
We leave situations that are constantly painful or we seriously change them. However, the Greyness is more deceptive than that. It prolongs its lifespan by throwing in occasional light. Those moments give us the illusion of hope; that we can eventually get what we want from the same scenario.
Commentator re Verloren and Farkas’s relationship.
If people could kill without going to jail and, perhaps, without getting their own hands dirty, they often would. Human nature is like that.
Commentator re Verloren’s feeling about Maria.
Even though we have a body which can thrive and be used for beautiful things, it is the changeless soul which connects.
Commentator about the healing of Amira’s grief re Zufar.
If you can’t work it out together then let each other go freely. You loved her once. She is still that same person. Think of that person you once loved. She is that person whether you are together or not.
Maria to Charlie about Charlie and Elizabeth’s relationship.
You can turn every ugly and damaging drama into a genuine blessing by seeing it differently. No one is suffering on purpose. We learn to give up the pleasure we feel in self-righteously blaming others. Healing happens when we see things differently. The question is: do you want suffering or peace? It’s that simple.
Amira to Maria about Maria’s anger towards Verloren
We are not trying to abide the darkness. We are choosing to sit where it is sunny and warm.
Amira to Maria about releasing negative, sad, resentful, worried thoughts.
Forgiving others is something we give ourselves every day.
Commentator re Maria’s forgiving Harry for being a bully.
Even though we have a body which can thrive and be used for beautiful things, it is the changeless soul which connects.
Commentator about the healing of Amira’s grief re Zufar.
We have already said more goodbyes than are necessary. Those were goodbyes that brought about the end of partings. We taught each other that no parting is possible.
Amira to Zufar, her partner from previous lifetimes.
Relationships are valuable no matter who they are between.
Maria to Mary about personal preferences.
We don’t have to stay in a repeating bad story, We can pick up a new book which is better and happier, just by putting the other book down.
Mary to Charlie re Charlie ending her abusive relationship with Elizabeth.
Relationships are a gift from God. One cannot arrange what is not written in Heaven. Both people must feel the spark of God which ignites the love and says, Come this way. I have a good story for you.
Commentator about Charlie and Mary.
We make people special to us, believing that they can save us. When one thing doesn’t work, we look somewhere else to be saved. We rarely question the concept, itself. Sometimes, we don’t look to another person to save us but to money, acknowledgement, a title, a cause, a notion of ourselves. None of it can save us. We travel the path in different ways; some are polite, some are ruthless, some are clever, some are instinctive. In the end, it all leads to the same despairing place. In the unsuspecting quiet moments, there it is; a sense of peace and a feeling that everything is fine without searching for anything to be saved by.
Commentator re Verloren’s sadness about Farkas leaving.
Every grievance you hold hides a little more of the light of the world from your eyes until the darkness becomes overwhelming. Everything you forgive restores that light. So, ask yourself, who is it that you are really hurting?
Head Gardener of Garourinn to Farkas.
You have loved me and so I leave part of myself here with you.
Maria, on leaving her first independent home, the Shrine, a shed on Charlie’s property.
You were brave to come anywhere near me. At some level, you knew that every thought you cherished would be taken apart, every grudge you harboured would be thrown back at you, and every ancient dream you held would be put into the fire. It is not just desperation that does that. It is a belief in oneself that one can do better, that one is worth it. You tried to hurt me but you couldn’t. All of it, you did to yourself. You never gave up on me completely, so that means you never gave up on yourself. You did well.
Amira to Farkas through the candle-voice in the Shrine.
Part 2: Eraldus – The Dividing Line
Anger is a cover for fear.
Commentator re Maria’s anger about Gabriel.
We must search for that point in the centre of a problem from which all the pain radiates. We have to be brave enough to pull the simple, biting answer from the depths of our murky consciousness.
Commentator re Maria trying to understand her feelings of distress.
It is only when we are far enough along to realise the sorry state that most people are in that we lose our concern with what other people think.
Amira to Maria about judging others’ mistakes.
It takes courage to tread one’s own course, but only at the beginning of each new stage. We hope that we are safe, but we are not yet sure.
Amira to Maria.
The child in us remains. It lives in our weaknesses. It lives in our trust. It lives in our desire to hold another’s hand. It lives in our devotion to something more than ourselves.
Commentator re Maria becoming ‘a young woman with her own house, her own business, and her own purpose’.
True forgiveness totally alters our perception. It sees the spiritual truth and loses sight of the alternatives. Our ego refuses to do this because its main food is remembering the wrongdoings against us even if they are entirely fabricated. To choose to see a different reality leaves the ego no room. It is the healing space. It is the beautiful space. It is the space of love and happiness.
Commentator re Maria’s focus on forgiveness during her retreat, in Aunt Rose’s house, in Eraldus.
When we love someone, we make it our business to protect them.
Commentator re Gortaithe (rescued and rehabilitated German shepherd) and his love for Maria.
Time is not necessary for healing but it is generally inevitable.
Commentator re Verloren’s path of healing after visiting Maria.
We find many friends when we are down and out. People swarm around with proclamations of, ‘Oh, how dreadful. How terrible.’ They may as well be saying, ‘Thank you so much for making me feel better about myself and my life. You have more problems than me and are more pathetic.’ Yet, when we enter the path of healing, there will be few standing there to wish us well, in case we find it.
Commentator to Maria after Verloren’s visit.
She doesn’t date. She understands how the dating arrangement works for other people, but finds the idea illogical for her own circumstances. Dates, as opposed to catching up with friends, assume that one is available and interested in some sort of a connection ranging from casual sex to marriage and including everything in between. Firstly, she doesn’t feel single. She doesn’t feel alone, and so the idea of searching for some person to fill a space doesn’t make sense to her. Secondly, she reads most people very quickly. The thought of dating a stranger in an awkward, draining, and undetermined situation to find out what sort of person they are, even though it is usually obvious, makes her cringe. Narrator re Maria
It is not for you to decide who you will love and trust. Love those who come into your life. Love them for as long as they wish to be there. And then still love them even if they are no longer there. You cannot run out of love or give too much away. You don’t have to decide or arrange anything. Your happiness is already assured.
Amira to Maria when Maria asked if she was missing the boat re relationships.
Healing has its own power and, once started, moves ahead methodically knowing exactly what track to take for the most efficient and effective results.
Commentator re Grace’s physical, emotional, and spiritual healing.
The windows of opportunity for growth can be few and far between. Perhaps, it is our willingness to approach them which is infrequent.
Narrator re Grace’s healing.
Imagine that your tears can talk. What would they say? Listen to them. They are trying to tell you something important.
Maria to Grace
Your first responsibility is to your own worth. Everything comes from that.
Maria to Grace about Grace’s imminent separation from her husband.
There is a depth to life which only comes from our connection to other people. However, we have to find it without becoming a prisoner.
Thomas’s thoughts about his own life and advice to Gabriel.
Healing is simple, if one is healed.
Amira to Maria about spiritual healers and teachers.
The spiritual path is more of an unlearning than a learning.
Amira to Maria.
Lies rob us of our trust and we project our untrustworthiness onto everyone around us. Have you ever noticed that the innocent are very trusting? They neither lie nor hold other people’s lies against them. Liars, on the other hand, see sabotage everywhere.
Maria’s advice to John (her client) re his marriage and friendship to another woman.
Do not be afraid of love or the course it will take. There is no certainty in life. Choose love first and choose love last and it will give you more than you ever give it.
Maria to John.
It was the moments; the precious moments. The moments when no one was complaining, blaming, thinking about past hurts or the fear of future ones. It was those moments of simply being present to another person. Those moments of being grateful. Gratitude for another being; gratitude for life. Those moments made their relationship.
Commentator re Maria and Gabriel’s experience of dancing together.
That voice you listen to is no friend. It promises so much but when has it ever given you what it promised? When has it ever given you any happiness longer than a fleeting moment? It has your destruction as its goal, not your happiness.
Amira (who now has full control of Maria’s body) to Farkas.
The road is certain for anyone who ventures near it.
Commentator re Farkas’s spiritual journey.
Appendix 2: Love and Sexuality
Most of our battle is asking the right question. Growth always requires the questioning of one’s current position.
No relationship is by accident; especially our most bonded relationships. Chance plays no role in the unfolding of our lives. Every relationship automatically pushes towards its own evolution. Each carries its own lessons and purpose. None will fail to fulfil their healing function. It may seem that they can fail and, sometimes, fail abysmally. However, healing is inevitable and simply a matter of time. From the perspective of the Divine, time is insubstantial and so healing is already present, even if not already obvious.
“Relationships are complex and multifaceted. They form, disintegrate, and reform based on problems, growth, destiny, and Divine assistance.”
“The spiritual path is very practical and relevant. This is particularly so in our personal relationships which have more power to change us than anything else. Every relationship is a lesson in love.”
“Have you not yet realised how fragile and brutal the ego is? It will always choose what it perceives as in its best interest for the cheapest price. It may be as blatant as short skirts and lies. It may be more sophisticated and hidden behind ‘kind’ words. But it all comes from the same place of either using people to get what we want or trying to eliminate people who get in our way.”
Amira to Thomas re his problems with Kathleen.
“Instinct is the great director in the formation of all relationships.”
Reach For It
“Be braver. Be more honest. Don’t hold onto what you knew in the past. Artists are meant to express what other people cannot. That is why an artist, of any type, is given a privileged position in society. They are meant to inspire and we are very reliant on inspiration to help us in our lives. You cannot inspire if you are not honest. What is honest for you now will take more courage to carry and hold than it did in the past.”
Amira to Gabriel when he was struggling with his creative work.
The Convent and the Clinkers
“Read minds more than minding words.”
Commentator re Clinker mother’s intuition about Sister Geraldine.
“If one holds back from life’s joys for fear of their ending, one will miss out on the best parts of life.”
Narrator re Ide and Farkas.
Beginnings and Endings
“Our thoughts and prayers have so much power. If people realised this, they would be much more careful where they let their thoughts drift.”
Amira’s thoughts about Teresa’s new relationships with Thomas and Bryan.
“The relationship, whatever form it may take, now and in the future, is already in motion. It is already bringing up the right issues. Regardless of its destined outcome, it is working in that good/bad, pleasure/painful way that important relationships do. Keep your own eyes on a straight course of love and trust and it will help to move everything in that direction.”
Amira to Teresa in the early stages of Teresa’s relationship with Bryan.
“We should respect other people’s decisions, even if they seem bad ones to us. Perhaps, we are wrong. Perhaps, we are not wrong but the decision is necessary for the person’s growth.”
Amira’s thoughts about Gabriel’s decision to marry Paul.
“That which holds us all together is very delicate.”
“It is the ongoing interplay between independence and intimacy. Push too far into independence and we disconnect and hurt each other. Then in a longing for togetherness, we seek each other out; fumbling around for the warmth of the other. Push too far into intimacy and we get afraid of losing ourselves in it and we head the other way.”
Amira’s thoughts about Gabriel’s behaviour.
“Love is to free, not to imprison.”
The Master of Garourinn’s advice to Farkas.
“We may be learning different things a lot of the time, but we are learning them together. It is enough to know that.”
Commentator re Teresa and Bryan’s relationship.
“We can learn to use the pain in our relationships to transform us thereby turning them into entities which heal not harm.”
Quote from the Little Book of Healing which Thomas and Kathleen were both reading.
Petals and Sweet Peas
“Life changes and often we just have to go with the flow not knowing its course. Things can change because there is something better or different for us and if we don’t follow our leanings then that which once seemed fine will start to feel unsatisfactory and will dismantle because it is not right for us anymore. It becomes a burden rather than the blessing it once was. We have to trust that as we were cared for in the past, we will be cared for in the future.”
Amira to Ide
“The ego is constantly on guard and looking for all the ways it will be betrayed and hurt. If we listen with our fears then almost everything is a threat. If we listen with our spirit then no offence is taken. The voice we listen to changes our perception.”
Amira’s thoughts re Farkas saying that she was ‘annoying and offensive’.
“Have no delusions of grandeur or plotting schemes. Have flawless confidence because you are worthy and sacred.”
Amira’s thoughts about the way gardens reflect spiritual qualities.
“Gardens remind us to be patient and humble because that’s what they are. They have no delusions of grandeur or plotting schemes. They trust implicitly that they will be cared for as part of the cycle of nature. They give so much, yet they are unaware of their gift. They have no perception of themselves. They treat all of their inhabitants, of every type and form, as sacred and worthy. They surrender themselves to the moment with flawless confidence and, when it is called for, with the unmarred hope of renewal.
Amira’s thoughts re gardens.
One Year On
“Who would willingly walk the path of love without first being seduced by its promise?”
Kathleen to Thomas about the painful nature of relationships.
“Have you noticed how much lying we do in our relationships? We tell ourselves that it’s not lying or it is excusable for purposes of self-defence. How little we realise that every lie digs us deeper into a painful delusion and we end up building war zones, not love boats.”
Thomas’s advice to Gabriel and himself about couple relationships.
“Those we love become our teachers whether we intend it or not.”
Teresa re Bryan’s maturity in resolving an argument.
“It’s easy to be nice to people who don’t mean that much to us. But if something matters to us, we will fight to make it work in our favour. Do we even know what is in our favour?”
Gabriel’s realisation about his approach to Amira.
“The learning opportunities of togetherness are not only practical but precious for us all.”
Erdo (the mystic of the Leleks) to Amira.
“Existence is much more than we can physically see. Our potential, in every way, is far greater than we understand. Spiritual reality is always pushing us towards evolution, healing, love, and freedom.”
Part 1: Dream On – The Outer Circle
Fork in the Road
“Think not you can return on the path that leads to the fork.
Taken once, it disappears as the choice lies ahead.
Both roads will lead to somewhere but one will be to nowhere.”
Mullum-Mullum’s poem at the beginning of Vera-Faith’s journey into the Outer Circle.
“Our ability to retain a happy and untroubled outlook does not just come from negating bad outlooks collectively, but from correcting specific, particular ones individually.”
Guide, Lan-Lan, to Vera (Amira) in Long Hill.
“What I see is not the truth. Unless I free others, I cannot be free myself. Above all, I wish to see.”
Vera-Amira’s mantra through Long Hill towards the Outer Circle.
“If one can remember that one is here for something more than fragile dreams then one will have passed the first pivotal test.”
Lan-Lan to Vera-Amira.
“Babies do not have both feet squarely on Earth. They float between the worlds, not being able to clearly distinguish them. As they grow, they must become firmly established as Earth dwellers. Their memory of other worlds fades and disappears. They learn how to be human before they can, one day, recall their spiritual heritage.”
Lord Lan-Lan to Vera-Amira
“When you have a castle within, you don’t need one outside. I prefer to keep things simple.”
Lord Lan-Lan to Vera-Amira
“Relationships are necessary and valuable for purposes of healing and learning how to love.”
Lord Lan-Lan to Vera-Amira
“Love unites. It speaks its own language and that language is always unifying.”
Lord Lan-Lan to Vera-Amira
“She missed him, but some things are more important than missing. Like love. People have to come back if and when they are ready. Then they will come back with the right ideas or requests or, at very least, the right bargains. Every other arrangement can only be a dressed-up delusion.”
Narrator re Amira missing Gabriel
Be forgiving but wise.
Amira’s thoughts in regards Billy and Oswald of the Waldmeer Hattery.
He was a player. She didn’t play. And if she did, it would have been for keeps.
Commentator re Amira and Sri (the yoga teacher)
If we could live in the consecrated spaces of happiness and forget the past, how easily the world would transform.
Amira’s thoughts in Waldmeer.
Don’t feed the drama monster. It’s insatiable and has no friends.
The Head Gardener of Garourinn to Verloren in her dream.
When the body is in its rightful mode, it is silent. We feel neither well nor sick, healthy nor unhealthy. The body becomes the quiet, perfectly functioning tool by which God uses us in this life. Your body can be well just as easily as sick. Your life can be harmonious and glad just as easily as it can be tormented and dramatic. Choose carefully. And if you have chosen unfortunately then choose again.
Aishi (Kathleen’s brother and a monk) to Kathleen.
One gets away with a lot when one is in an unchallenging relationship or is too busy to invest in one at all. Mostly, one gets away from oneself. The worst person to get away from is oneself.
Commentator re Thomas.
Part 2: Darnall – The Middle Circle
Make-Overs and Move-Ons
Self-love is a process. If a physical overhaul brings more freedom, creativity, and self-worth then the process will add to the person’s depth and happiness. It would be a step closer to realising one’s inestimable worth. If the overhaul doesn’t do that then it is decorating skeletons.
Amira’s thoughts about Amelia’s physical transformation.
When we are personally transforming into a whole, healthy, and soulful being, we automatically want to help others to do the same thing as it strengthens and accelerates our own transformation.
Narrator re Grace’s new venture with Thomas in the Darnall Arcade.
We all have two voices, perhaps, many more. Every day, if not every minute, we have to choose which one will get our attention. If we choose the higher one, our suffering will lessen and, quite often, completely disappear, but it takes humility and trust. The longer we keep listening to the lower voice, the harder it is to drag ourselves away from it. Nevertheless, all it takes is one second. If we chose something else last week or yesterday or a minute ago, it doesn’t matter. We just need to make another choice right now.
Amira to Teresa about Bryan’s changeable behaviour.
Do not assume that someone else’s ego can love you. It cannot. It does not even love the person it resides in. The limit of the ego’s ‘love’ is to decide that you are a temporary ally and thus it will protect you for the benefit of its own use. Only a soul can accept and return love. Everything else is manipulation. Fragile arrangements. They are, at best, suspicious and, at worst, vicious.
Mullum-Mullum to Amira re her upset with Gabriel.
The Spirit is as much a jealous lover as the ego. Both guard their path with an uncompromising passion but for very different reasons.
Mullum-Mullum to Amira.
Love is its own reward. We do not have to worry about what other people think about us. We can never feel alone or isolated when we understand that it is impossible for love to leave our side. Love is all around us.
Amira recalling a quote from the Little Book of Healing while thinking about her relationship issues with Gabriel.
You have to stay out of the game. It’s deadly and no one ever wins. Everyone is a loser. Even seeming wins are short-lived and have the taste of bitterness mixed in with the satisfaction of personal gain. The ego is exclusive by nature.
While the spirit seeks to include, the ego is unashamedly manipulative in its culling of people. The intention of self-aggrandisement is barely even covered over. The soul does not see people in terms of what it can gain. It seeks to share. It seeks to create by extension of its own and others’ true nature. The ego is extremely changeable. It has no stability. Constantly guarding against attack and looking out for its own advantage, its perceptions and thus feelings towards others are ever-shifting. This creates unhappiness. The more we veer away from our true nature, the more unhappy we feel. When we align with our better self, we feel happy again. And so the process continues until the spaces between happiness are not as long and arduous. The presence or absence of personal peace is our barometer. It will guide us even if we are not sure of the way.
Mullum-Mullum to Amira in the old rose garden of Darnall.
Relationships are constantly changing. They have to be dealt with every day anew. They are not constant, unchanging entities. You have to pay attention. If things take a turn for the worse then it is painful but it’s a chance to see things differently, a chance to see more. So that is a helpful pain.
Erdo to Amira and Farkas at his farmhouse in the Leleks.
Put your efforts towards the things in life that enhance your highest self.
Erdo to Farkas
Do not like or dislike anyone. Share your love regardless of how it is received. Anyone who can receive it, will do so. Many, who you are unaware of, will benefit from it. See yourself as a total person; not a partial person. Do not seek completion from other humans. Do not be disturbed by pains which come and go. Pick yourself up and take each pain as an important opportunity to progress. Tell yourself that you will have a happy and blessed life. Forgive everyone who hurts you. They are suffering already. You are loved beyond anything you can currently perceive. Be brave and do not fall asleep.
Advaitaguru at the Narrow Lane meeting on Amira’s first visit there with Rose.
We’re our own worst enemy and our own best friend.
Wolfgang (ballroom dancer and husband of dementia patient) to Amira re Gabriel’s dismissal of her.
The way is not narrow. It’s wide. Everyone is welcome. However, we have to know that we are welcome or we keep the door shut ourselves.
Amira to Grace when Grace thought she would not be allowed into the Narrow Lane meeting.
We can be grateful to everyone, everywhere, who does their best by giving what they have to give, no matter what issues they are facing in their own lives.
Ide’s response to the hospital staff in helping with Christopher’s accident.
In the Air
Peace; how unassuming you are. Yet, you are king of all the feelings.”
Gabriel about a rare moment of peace.
Part 3: Borderfirma Mountains – The Inner Circle
If you must dream a dream, at least, make it a happy dream.
Exit sign of the Borderfirma Mountains.
At every step, she paused, withdrew to the inner sanctuary, and asked herself, Does this feel right? Her answer came in the form of peace or tension. If she felt tension, she stepped a different way. If she felt peace, she kept going forward.
Amira’s method of moving through a dangerous section of the Lowlands.
Whenever you feel a spark of love or goodwill towards another person – male, female, young or old – feed it so that it will grow. It is not about finding the right person or people. People are not that right. Even if they start out right, we soon have a litany of complaints. The only answer is to be the right person ourselves. Then everything will have a tendency to work together in a good way. And when it does work, don’t then be waving contracts, written or invisible, in front of people. Love that controls is not love but a contract. It says, “You must love me in this way,” not, “I love you.” You have your freedom and life has its own justice so you don’t need to jump into the driving seat before the other person has an opportunity to. Just love. Love freely and genuinely. Love openly and with courage. And forgive, forgive, forgive. People are a mass of problems. Stop remembering them all or there will be no room to create the beautiful moments you wish to cherish in your soul.
Erdo to Farkas
Karmic groupings are never by accident. People congregate together, flying in like a flock of birds, and eventually out again. There may be some years difference in timing, but years are neither here nor there in the timeless eternal.
You see the separation of life as very arbitrary at this time. You are not alone in this assumption. You have far more connection than you are even vaguely aware of. You will not lose the love that is yours.
Advisors of the Homeland to Farkas who was worried about his relationship with Amira.
The worst place is at the fork. You can’t keep going the same direction as you came. You have to choose one or other path. Whatever the choice, at least, it is movement. Otherwise, you are just forking around getting nowhere.
Mullum-Mullum to Gabriel in the Borderfirma Mountains.
Doing Our Best
No one replaces anyone else. No one substitutes for another person. Every person is unique. Every relationship is unique. Every relationship’s purpose is unique. Life is fluid; it moves. It doesn’t die; it reforms. Each day is new. We can only try and do our best for today. It’s enough, don’t you think? No more is asked. But also no less.
Salt to Ide re her past relationship with Farkas.
It is not the frame which matters but the picture. Make sure that the picture is beautiful. The frame is only there to draw the eyes to the picture.
Zufar to his children: Bethany, Malik, and Aristotle.
“Love can never be lost. It is not exclusive. Life is precious and should be lived with purpose and courage. It is not only possible but essential that we learn how to turn our human experience into a happy and harmonious one.”
“What does the spiritual journey matter other than it transforms our lives? Nowhere is this more obvious than in our personal relationships.”
Part 1: Summer
Look After My Boy
“Some people’s words stay inside us and have the power to change us and other people’s words are powerless, no matter how intelligent they may sound.”
Gabriel recalling things Amira had told him in years past.
“There was nothing about her that was offensive and there was nothing about her that was attention-seeking. It was as if her body functioned so well and silently that she barely even noticed it except that she needed it.”
Gabriel’s thoughts about Faith-Amira when she first arrived in Waldmeer.
A Different Approach
“Trying to get someone interested in us (who is not) is a painful and pointless endeavour. There are many people in the world. Some are for us. Most are not.”
Commentator re Bethany’s maturity.
Witches of Wurt Wurt Koort
“Looking is only for those who cannot see.”
Commentator re the Wurt Wurt Koort witches’ intuitive ability.
“Relationships always bring about the dissolution of our delusions.”
Commentator re Gabriel’s problems with Faith-Amira.
Wurt Wurt Koort Tearooms
“We assign roles to all the people in our life in an attempt to master it. The roles can be reasonable or preposterous. Either way, when we realise that others do not agree to the terms of the role we have assigned to them, we get upset. Is it their fault? Surely, they are simply following their own dreams. What matters is that we love the dreamer of the dream. It matters that we love people. We mustn’t invent roles for others because we think it will make us happy. Who are we to invent such things? Can the tiny piece of seaweed tell the vast ocean what it must do? What wills to grow will grow. What wills to flow will flow.”
Mirror of Life
“Creating is higher than healing. It is primal. However, in order to create profoundly, we must first heal.”
Faith-Amira’s thoughts at the H & C Headquarters in Tierramedio (the world in the middle of Borderfirma and Heaven).
“What have you got to lose? What are you hanging onto? Trust. You have not come this far to turn back now. You are almost there. Have faith.”
The Divine voice to Faith-Amira in Tierramedio.
“All of creation wants to create through you. You are not your body and you are not in your body. Your body is in Life. Use it until you need it no more and then you will be happy to release it.”
The Master to Faith-Amira in Tierramedio.
Two Hundred Laughs
“Love isn’t a spell. Not if it’s the sort of love that wakes us up. Then it’s a spell-breaker, not a spell-maker.”
Faith-Amira to Gabriel when he told her that he knew who she was.
“There are bound to be problems and life is not perfect but we can be grateful for all the pieces of life that are happy and harmonious. The other pieces will have their own way of falling into place. The less ego there is in both the good and the bad, the more the good things can grow and the bad things will not be fed.”
Faith-Amira’s thoughts about Gabriel.
Part 2: Marry At Once
“What changes is the mindset from which he is seeing life. Sometimes, it is higher. Sometimes, it is lower. When it is higher, he is more strongly confident in his attachment to you. When it is lower, he gets pulled by all the offerings of the ego and the people in his life who share those values with him. He doesn’t know that he is constantly gravitating between the two. Otherwise, it would be easy to fix, and it is not. One has to learn to recognise both mindsets and understand the consequences of each.”
The Master’s teaching to Faith-Amira about Gabriel on Waldmeer’s main beach.
“There is an aid for helping us to learn how to distinguish between the ego way and the higher way. It is pain. The ego way inevitably leads to pain, even if it seems to temporarily satisfy. The higher way does not. It works. And it works harmoniously. It brings the sort of success that has no bitter after-taste. It is not manipulative. It doesn’t play one person against another. It doesn’t feed anyone’s fantasies. It is honest and it protects the good.”
The Master to Faith-Amira.
“Those who view you as detrimental to their own causes will see you as an enemy, no matter what you think of them. Whatever damage they think they can get away with, they will do. The more the ego wants something, the more vicious it can become. If it is not vicious immediately, it will simply be biding time. Everyone who has come to Earth has chosen the ego and must learn, quickly or slowly, its worthlessness and its venom.”
The Master to Faith-Amira.
“Don’t have a goal in mind when it comes to people. Your value is the love you share with the world. That love will always draw to you what you need. Remain faithful to the spirit you see in others and you will save them a thousand years of tears.”
The Master to Faith-Amira about Gabriel.
Tears and Sunshine
“A thousand years of tears can only be voluntarily avoided.”
Zufar to Faith-Amira about Gabriel.
“Desperation is the door of the Divine.”
Aunt Charity (head witch of Wurt Wurt Koort) to Bethany about when Charity’s child died.
“Everyone on Earth is on Death Row until they find a way out. It’s not so hard to find the way out. The problem is wanting to.”
The Master to Faith-Amira in the hallway of Tierramedio.
“Do you really want to hold onto empty things? We don’t have to give anything up. They just need transforming. A thousand years of happiness would be much better than another thousand years of tears, don’t you think?”
Faith-Amira to an elderly Gabriel in Tierramedio.
Part 3: The Last Useless Battle
Game of Life
“When we give our attention and love to anything in life, it is a significant offering. We only have so much time. What we spend it on and who we give it to will determine the course of our life.”
Faith-Amira to Rybert when she told him that he needed to return to Earth from the Lowlands of Borderfirma.
Not on My Watch
“It was seldom necessary to use the full force of the fire inside her, but when it came, it came without apology. It came from Beyond and when present, she had no personal identity. Having no identity and therefore nothing to lose, the force was given free rein. Therein lay its power. ”
Commentator re Faith-Amira’s command that all the Borderfirma armies were to return home and leave her alone in the Lowlands.
For Nothing, For All
“They did normal things, but they did them with abnormal love and inclusiveness.”
Commentator re the six lone members of Floating Cave monastery in the face of a pending battle.
“To an ego, being ignored is equivalent to annihilation. To not exist is any ego’s greatest fear. It is a warranted fear because the ego does, in fact, get annihilated in proportion to the growth of one’s spiritual realisation. However, the rewards of spiritual development so outshine the feeble offerings of the ego that it is an insignificant price to pay. Does one begrudge paying a small price for something invaluable?”
Commentator re Evanora’s reaction to being ignored by her people in the Lowlands.
“The last useless battle;
someone will fall.
Useless but useful,
for nothing, for All.
The one that falls is our own small self. Indeed, it must fall. Every battle is useless because, ultimately, they are not necessary. Nevertheless, every battle is important because we cannot win a battle that we don’t know we should be fighting. It is all for nothing and also all for everything.”
The Master’s recital to Gabriel of Nina’s poem and his explanation of its meaning.
Part 1: Pittown
“This is where I am, so I give myself to here.”
Merlyn re living in Pittown.
The Sleeping Prophet
“Although a drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts, both the words and thoughts are usually muddled and destructive, as is generally the case with drinkers and talkers.”
“We all have different things to do in life. And how we know is that it drives us and won’t let us go.”
Elderly Enid to Merlyn
“Beauty is the soul of life. If we learn to see beauty, we are never far from God.”
Enid to Merlyn
The Moving Buddha
“Acceptance is easier when one is powerless.”
Commentator re Ben discovering that Merlyn was pregnant.
“Before anyone can improve their life, they must get the idea that change is possible, that life can be different and better, and that it is worth the effort it takes to make it happen.”
Merlyn’s thoughts re the people of Pittown.
“Some things are not meant for giving away.”
Merlyn’s thoughts re the sad love story of Martha and Father Francis.
“Who am I to judge? We are all building our own worlds, growing our abilities, and forming relationships. How else do people learn but by experience and practice?”
Merlyn’s thoughts re Ben and his students/colleagues from the State Ballet.
“In amongst the momentary glory and inevitable change is the unrelenting, ferocious desire to express the soul through a limited body in the hope that it can bring some peace to a painful inner and outer world.”
Merlyn’s thoughts as she walked passed the State Ballet.
“Along with all the dirty work, there is also love. Along with all the dirty dancing, there is also purity. Along with all the hatred, hurt, and anger, there is also healing.”
Merlyn’s thoughts re dancing and relationships.
Part 2: Silent Order
“The silence is constant. The noise is temporary.”
Dr Apollo to Merlyn on her first visit to Level 3, Joe-Joe’s Apartments.
“We cultivate inner stillness through the practice of contemplation or awareness. Behind the normal goings-on of everyday life, we try to have a consistent wakefulness. We learn to watch what we are thinking, what other people are thinking, and what is the spiritual truth of any given situation. We live in two realms. One is the visible human realm. The other is the invisible spiritual realm. This is not obvious to anyone except those who do the same thing. Then it is instantly recognisable.”
Dr Apollo during Merlyn’s first Silent Order meeting.
“Withdrawal is not really a choice. Nor is it something one should try to do. Some people will find that their attachment to the world has, without effort, diminished and they will crave solitude. They may withdraw from mainstream life in order to focus on their growth. Withdrawal can be deceptive in appearance. A person can live an apparently solitary lifestyle but their mind is full of noise. On the other hand, someone can have the appearance of a normal life but, unknown to others, be in a state of inner solitude.”
Dr Apollo’s reply re withdrawal during the community meeting.
“Without silence, we can neither know ourselves, another, or the depth of anything beautiful. We learn how to take silence into the noise.”
Dr Apollo to the meeting.
Lovers, Fairies, and Fools
“Most of our problems would be gone if we stopped saying three, little words. What about me?”
Dr Apollo during Silent Order meeting in the Botanic Gardens.
“The place where all important things happen is silent and solitary. It is seldom spoken of. It is momentous, yet, almost imperceptible.”
Commentator re Ben’s retreat at his Store Creek house.
Part 3: Back to the Border
Crossing Lines and Drawing Circles
“Neither person has to give any of themselves away. They are entirely themselves. Together they live in something bigger than themselves which encloses both. It is something that is already made; something the two belong to; something that they both merge with without losing anything.”
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08W2NCBZ8PRANA (Book 6)
Part 1: For Better or Worse
“Understanding ourselves takes work and courage. Whether or not we choose to do it is up to us. Although, essentially, we don’t have a choice because, eventually, the pain will make it intolerable. It’s more a matter of how much pain we are willing to endure before we undergo the ‘pain’ of transformation. At least, the latter pain gets us somewhere.”
Esther (therapist) to Ben
Part 2: Prana Community
“We are all here to create a healthy body, a clear mind, balanced emotions, and an aligned energy field.”
Verloren to Merlyn
“We do not always have control over what happens in the outside world, but we can learn to control what happens on the inside.”
Verloren to Merlyn
Ajna and Manipura
“Once you have met your guru, you are done for. Once you have fallen in love with a guru, there’s no going back. Oh, you can, for sure, leave. You can even say that you hate them. Worse, you can say you were mistaken and that they aren’t your guru at all. But you can never really leave. The magnetic love of a true guru will always be with you because gurus never stop loving their chosen ones. If you come to them and they say yes, the guru knows that whatever stupid thing you may (and probably will) do, they will not stop loving you. Never. Ever. They cannot escape from you and so it is only fair that you cannot escape from them either.”
Narrator re Bob Owens and his guru
“Warmth is an emotional attitude towards chosen people. Love is inclusive of everyone and has no ulterior motive.”
Merlyn about Verloren
Shambhavi’s poem to Merlyn
“All the positions you learn in yoga are done in order to learn how to not take positions in life. You like this person. You don’t like that one. Life must be seen freshly. Everything is a possibility. When I see you, I look at you freshly. What are you, at this moment? We must get rid of all our positions. That is a great weight gone.”
Prana Community Guru
Part 3: Borderfirma
No Going Back
“People often have a romantic ideal of the forest, but if you sit under a tree, every insect within a ten-metre radius will make a beeline for you. It’s not romantic. It is, however, transformative. To feel its pulse, its rhythm, its life. To learn its ways, its regenerative power, its creative prowess. When we look at trees, we think of them as trucks, branches, and leaves. We forget that under the ground there is a vast and complex system of intertwined roots that is as large and fascinating as the system above the soil. It is through this underground system that the trees talk to each other, warn each other of danger, help the sick trees, support the elderly ones, and generally have an elaborate and purposeful way of communicating with the whole ecological community.”
Nina to Faith-Amira
“Every moment is a gift, but when the moment passes, the gift is not gone. The real gift is the life and spirit within another. That life is everywhere around us. It gets concentrated in a certain place and we call that a ‘loved one’. But if the ‘loved one’ has to journey somewhere, we haven’t lost the gift of love or life. It swirls around and shows itself to us in a million ways.”
Ide to Merlyn
Part 4: Mandala
“Creation, of any sort, needs a little bit of madness.”
“Religions are full of rituals, drama, costumes, use of the elements (particularly, fire and water), and stories. Humans are essentially story-tellers and drama-performers. It helps them connect to their right-brain functions of creativity, emotion, intuition, imagination, expression, and innovative thinking.”
“Without opportunities to grow, we don’t.”
“When you are older, you rule your body. It doesn’t rule you, anymore. You tell it what to do, and it does it.”
Rybert to Merlyn
In the Lap of Devotion
“Seniority and superiority are not the same thing.”
Merlyn to Rybert about Guru Gadubanud
“Each one must choose the way that is most suited to their temperament and stage of development, but the quickest way is the way of devotion because whatever we are devoted to, we merge with.”
“Whatever we are devoted to, we merge with.”
“My affair is with life.”
“When we are a spiritual student, our gender identity is omni-gender and our relationship status is omni-relationship-status.”
Merlyn to Shambhavi
“On the spiritual path, romance loses its worth. Romance implies that we need to be completed by another of a certain gender. And if we handle it correctly, we’ll supposedly get what we need. But when we are already complete, life and relationships become a whole different playing field.”
Merlyn to Shambhavi
“We have to be as strong as we are sensitive, as intelligent as we are feeling, and as logical as we are creative.”
Merlyn to Shambhavi
“When we are a spiritual student, our gender identity is omni-gender. It’s no longer okay to develop the traditional qualities of one of the genders and forget about the rest. We have to be as strong as we are sensitive, as intelligent as we are feeling, and as logical as we are creative. Underneath, or above, our birth-gender, we include it all. That isn’t a very romantic idea, but that’s the point. On the spiritual path, romance loses its worth. Romance implies that we need to be completed by another of a certain gender. And if we handle it correctly, we’ll supposedly get what we need. But when we are already complete, life and relationships become a whole different playing field.”
Merlyn to Shambhavi
“Single or partnered, on the spiritual path, everyone is both. And neither. We are omni-relationship-status.”
Merlyn to Shambhavi
“I’m not an outsider because I see the inside of you.”
Merlyn to Tom
“Mandalas are based on the idea that anything which is done consecutively for forty days makes an imprint on the body as a habit. Our bodies’ physiology changes every forty to forty-eight days and so we are given raw material to work with.”
“If someone else’s actions betray our sensitivities, is it a betrayal or is it that the person is simply doing what they want; what they perceive as in the best interests of their own happiness? Just because something hurts us, does it mean we are betrayed? Maybe, they are just living their lives.”
“One day, you won’t need to do spiritual practices because you will have become the very thing that you have practised for years. You will look at the elements and not see them as outside of you. You will look at the master and not see him as a person other than you. You will look at those you love and see them as part of your own life-fibre.”
Guru Gadubanud to Prana Community
“When we are close to someone, in a physical way, for an extended period of time, our actual body will grieve if they are no longer available to us. Our body has its own memory.”
“If ‘God only knows’ then there can be no safer journey.”
Part 1: The First Passage
“Some things are best hidden by remaining directly in front of everyone’s eyes.”
Narrator re Purnima Passage at the beginning of Twenty Mile Track
Tom & Hardy
“Although family dinners can be a good way for people to connect, they can also be the reason for a great deal of heartburn.”
Narrator re Ekadashi and fasting
“Being outside changes our perspective. It changes things that can best do with a change. The wind dismantles the heaviness, the light reorients the mind, the greenness invigorates hope, and the entire majestic dynamic of nature reminds us of our insignificance and also of our absolute significance.”
Narrator re Merlyn sitting outside her flat in winter
Part 2: Purnima and Poetry
“People in the country wave because it’s important to them that they wave. The response doesn’t alter what they feel they should do. Apart from that, they don’t overthink things. They have too much to do. She did. Think, that is. That’s why she left. That’s also why she was returning now.”
“Her thoughts were drawn back to the reality of small-town country life. Their world is small; occasionally idyllic, but nearly always small.”
“Part of growing up involves becoming estranged from one’s birth family. If the family romance is not broken, one never truly grows up.”
“Part of growing up involves becoming estranged from one’s birth family. If the family romance is not broken, one never truly grows up. Usually, we don’t have to look too far to find estrangement material, but country estrangement often takes a particular form.”
“It was true that common sense wasn’t her forte. It wasn’t that she was silly or stupid, but she heard so many more voices than the common-sense voice. That complicates matters. And sometimes the other voices were much more interesting and pressing than the common common-sense voice.”
“For all the talk about common sense, common sense is not always sensical and there are often more intelligent (albeit, less obvious) solutions. Further, what is good common sense in one environment is far from common or sensical in another environment. It is situational. City slickers can be a danger to themselves and others in the country, but the reverse is also true.”
“You don’t have be lying in a hospital bed to be alcoholic. Many alcoholics function at a high level and appear fine. But, bit by bit, as the dependence gets more control, their life starts to unravel – their body, their relationships, their work, their ability to be productive, their mood, their self-respect, their will to live. They have to give it the flick. There isn’t any other way. Give it the flick or it’s gotcha.”
State Ballet teacher re alcoholism and Ben
“Sometimes, he would say (like all alcoholics) that if someone is a happy drunk then it is okay. There are no happy drunks. They all end up a misery. So do the people around them.”
“Confidence? Some of the most destructive things in the world are done with utter confidence.”
“In any area of life, the one thing that inspires fearless devotion in followers is devotion from the leader.”
Generally, touching wasn’t something that she was a big fan of. She didn’t need it herself, and found that it was not necessarily helpful to other people, although most crave it. She touched little children, a lot, because they genuinely need it to grow and thrive. She touched lovers because lovers are like children. Well, not exactly. But, all going well, lovers do have the openness, vulnerability, and playfulness of children with each other and so touching is both good and helpful. She touched people in dancing because dancers can only talk through their bodies. They have no other language.
At no time are you to interfere with anyone else’s energetic system without being expressly requested or, in some manner, clearly indicated that it is their wish for you to do so. We are not the occult. We are a spiritual path.
When you can be still and still dance, you are a great dancer. When you can move and still be still, you are a greater dancer.
So much of sexual desire comes from the belief that another body can alleviate our aloneness. It can’t do that, but people believe it can. When one body doesn’t work, they look for another. She didn’t feel alone, so she didn’t look for anyone’s body, or personality, to fill the void.
If you listen to someone talking to themselves, what they are saying is basically the same as what people are always saying to themselves in their own minds. The difference is generally not in the content, but that they are saying it aloud. The line between talking silently to oneself and talking those same thoughts out loud, unchecked and unawares, is the demarcation of sanity. If one wants to venture into extra-sensory experiences of life then one should have a very firm grip of that line. Otherwise, the fine line of sanity will be transgressed and the person may have a hard time retrieving it which explains why many spiritual groups are full of loonies.
No matter where it is, in its monthly cycle, the moon always has its face turned towards Earth. The day it starts to look away from us is the beginning of our decline as we currently know it.
The moon always has its face to us because that is part of its geometrically-perfect tracking-path around Earth. That, in turn, effects our geometrically-perfect tracking-path around the sun. If, for some reason, in some distant day, the moon’s orbit of Earth was even slightly altered (by the endless possibility of things that can and probably do happen in the universe), then our planet would also slowly change its orbit around the sun. Over generations, the Earth’s population would adjust to the changes, gradually stop reproducing. and eventually humans would cease to exist. Probably, some other life forms would remain for much longer as many are more malleable than us. These thoughts didn’t, in the slightest, seem distressing. In fact, it seemed a rather gentle and kind way for humanity to eventually decline. Besides, if we can appear on a brilliant, blue gem of a planet, at some point in time and space, we can just as easily reappear somewhere else. Creation doesn’t stop. It changes. It’s the changes that help it to continue on its constant creative path.
Creation doesn’t stop. It changes. It’s the changes that help it to continue on its constant creative path.
Part 3: Stalkers, Snakes, and Stones of Spring
When are things perfectly balanced on the outside? Rarely. And in those glorious moments that they are, it doesn’t last long. The only viable option is to try and balance ourselves on the inside so that we are not pushed around by what happens outside us.