The Dark Night of the Soul

It is often in the utter despair of humanness that we become willing to consider deeply spiritual answers. It was through the pathway of Metapsychiatry and the guidance and support of its founder, Dr Thomas Hora, that I was able to discover a higher spiritual truth. The door and the guide will be different for most people but once the door is open, we are all in the same territory. Spiritual truth irretrievably alters our way of seeing reality and our ability to heal both ourselves and other people. Most spiritual awakening is due to a total disappointment in the human condition to provide any sense of substantial happiness. It is a blessing in disguise. Our greatest need is for the love and assurance that spiritual understanding brings. If it were not for the common experience of human lovelessness and limitation then we would not be driven to seek a higher love.

My initial contact with Metapsychiatry was through a book that was given to me. Not long after reading the book, I was able to travel to the United States to attend the annual conference of Metapsychiatry. I went with my husband who was an investment banker and twenty years my senior. I was twenty-two at the time and Dr Hora was seventy. His presence radiated peace, assurance, love, and power. He was, in fact, the only person I had ever met who had the quality of being that I was looking for. He instantly became my teacher, without reservation, and with deep longing for growth and spiritual progress.

Some days, back in Australia, I would simply repeat many times, God loves me. That is enough. I read the books daily, listened to the class tapes that were sent to me, and prayed all the time. I spoke frequently with Dr Hora on the phone; both from Australia and, for several years, from England (often, in the middle of the night because of the time difference). I was also able to travel to the States, fairly regularly, to see Dr Hora and attend his classes and the annual conferences. All of this occurred before the day of the internet and so international communication was certainly not an easy process.

Once, Dr Hora told me that it was the dark night of the soul. He assured me that it would lift and I would be surprised at how happy I would be. Everything he told me, I soaked in desperately. This period was the crucible which was to be of vital and foundational importance in the development of my spiritual understanding.

In all the conversations I had with Dr Hora, the most often repeated and most important concept which I needed to grasp was,

Donna, you have to understand that you are not here to get love. You are here to manifest non-conditional goodness, for God’s sake. You are here for God and if you are devoted to that idea you will not be disturbed by what other people believe. You will never feel unloved if you know that that’s not what you are here for. We are all here for God and we are to manifest non-personal, nonconditional benevolence, with no strings attached. Love is its own reward. You don’t have to worry about what you are getting or not getting. You are here for God. That’s the bottom line. Once you learn to live that way, you will never be vulnerable to other people.

To understand this is to understand the love of being loving. It radically changes us. People, in and of themselves, cannot give us happiness. Activities, in and of themselves, cannot give us happiness. At a certain stage of development, one releases all the attachments to both people and activities as a source of happiness. In so doing, one finds a more subtle way of being present in the world. One becomes a loving presence, a centre for Divine grace. Once again, people and activities are enjoyed. In fact, much more so. However, there is no craving or desire to get something, no expectation that the person or activity can fulfil us. One brings something – the love of God.

During this whole period of suffering and mental and spiritual struggling, Dr Hora let me both suffer and struggle. He, at no point, tried to alleviate my suffering by human means – by sympathy, affection or human advice. He knew that if I just kept going, the understanding of nonpersonal, divine Love would come. Happily, it did. The darkness grew less and the light came filtering in and remained a growing presence.

The Love of Being Loving is about awakening and expanding our spiritual consciousness. It is also a personal journey. However, that which is elevating for a single consciousness is also elevating for human consciousness as a whole. There are no secrets. Nothing is withheld by God. Yet, it is only by our own sincere searching, the evolutionary stage we have reached, and the grace of God that we come into contact with spiritual pathways and teachers that are right for us at any particular time. This book is based on the metaphysical teachings of two spiritual paths and their corresponding founders: Dr Thomas Hora of Metapsychiatry and Mary Baker Eddy of Christian Science. The ideas expressed have a universal quality. Spiritual principles, if true, are true for everyone. That is the yardstick that validates their authenticity. Authentic spiritual ideas also have the universal power to heal. Healing is the building block of both individual and collective spiritual evolution. 

This edition of The Love of Being Loving has many quotes from Thomas Hora and Mary Baker Eddy and also a few other relevant teachers. The quotes lived with me for the years that I studied both spiritual disciplines and were foundational to my learning. They are at the end of each chapter.

Love and Devotion is a two-book nonfiction series. The first book, in the series, is The Love of Being Loving. It is about the earlier adult years of my spiritual development. Dr Thomas Hora (Metapsychiatry) and Mary Baker Eddy (Christian Science) were the most significant influences on my spiritual path during my twenties and thirties.

The second book is The Love of Devotion. In my forties, I started reading a series of metaphysical books by Dr David R. Hawkins. I realised that they were having a potent impact on my growth and Dr Hawkins became my next spiritual teacher. Dr Hawkins (Devotional Nonduality) and Dr Hora came from very similar spiritual and intellectual terrain. We are drawn to a certain field of truth which resonates with our inner leanings. My interest in understanding thought drew me to teachers who also had a deep interest in human consciousness.

2 Replies to “The Dark Night of the Soul”

  1. Thank you for this. Beautiful.

    I have quoted your book and your teachers several times in my Mastery Club Facilitators’ Manual.

    With love, Liliane

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